Stumble, recover

There are moments when I lose focus. This is less often than it used to be, as I’ve found strong purpose in almost all my present endeavors. This purpose works like a current beneath me, carrying me in a certain direction. And though I believe it is the right direction, it is not always easy to swim to the side. I’m not the best at resetting or stepping back as a form of self-preservation. I stumbled last week. On stage, in front of a room full of colleagues I respect and admire, I stumbled. It was not the best seven […]

Flower and Fruit

For most of my adult life, I’ve sought more than superficial acquaintance. That I may truly know a friend (woman or man), with all her vulnerability, is a gift; but it is a gift I seek with intention. Grant me the pleasure of knowing you with such depth, and I promise to protect it, to hold it dear to my heart. If you so desire, I will return the favor. I am purposeful in my approach to relationships, as I need not bother another with the noise of my existence, and I care not indulge in less than all of […]

My Dedum

Over the past week, I’ve been reminded of the beauty and depth of my family. I have not always been the best niece, or cousin. I’ve wandered a bit, and haven’t stayed in touch the way I should. I haven’t always been around for birthdays or even births. But one thing remains the same, I feel loved in the arms of any member of my family. Though this is a sad time, my heart is big with love right now. My Aunt Lyndell (my Dedum), was an extraordinary woman with a love-laced superpower. I never knew a child that wouldn’t […]

What a wonderful journey!

Looking back at my last post, I recognize a natural pause, a page break. I took time away from self-presentation to focus more on self-exploration, self-improvement, and self-reflection. I went back to UNC for graduate school, joined and sold my family’s business, went corporate, married my favorite human, quit corporate, joined AOPA, traveled, loved and lived. I have more to be grateful for than I could possibly list. With every hand shake and every hug, I gather more love for my fellow humans. Words I use to describe the different groups of friends and family I find myself surrounded by […]

In case you were wondering …

There was a time when I was so naively enthusiastic about life and the world that I would write in my journals, at length, about any particular topic that struck my fancy. I have a chest full of journals with pages full of uninhibited sentiment and pure nonsense. The nonsense, perhaps far more useful than the sentiment, documents the wondering and wandering of my youth, adolescence and young adulthood. Now that I take myself too seriously I often miss the opportunity to think a single thought so truthfully as those written in my journals. I hope to one day find room […]